ONLY IN OUR DREAMS
Chapter 30

Quite A Few Months Later
Amber's View

"Honey, I'm home," I heard behind me.
"You're back!" I said as I struggled to get out of the chair I was sitting in.
"I think you're gonna have to help her," said Rhonda as she ran over to greet Howie.
AJ headed over to me and helped to pull me into a standing position. "My god you got big on me," he said taking in the sight of my huge stomach.
"Don't remind me – I'm big and ugly!"
"Babe," he said pulling me into a hug as well as he could, "you're carrying my baby and you could never be big or ugly to me. Well," he said patting my stomach playfully, "you could never be ugly."
I smacked him on the arm, "Well I wouldn't be this big if you had just remembered…." AJ kissed me to shut me up.
"So how are you and little Josh doing?" he said again patting my stomach.
"Don't you mean little Arrianna?"
"I'm not gonna call my son Arrianna!" AJ said laughing.
"Well I'm not gonna call my daughter Josh!"
"You know you two wouldn't be having this fight if you would just let the doctor tell you what the sex of the kid was." Howie said coming over to give me a hello hug.
"Yeah the rest of us are still stuck calling this kid Baby Boner," Rhonda said.
"No," I said, "we both agreed that we wanted it to be surprised. Besides I think Baby Boner fits anything conceived between me and AJ." Everyone just laughed because it was such a true statement.
"Hey I almost forgot, I got something for the baby!" AJ ran back over to where his bags were and pulled out a small box. "I found these in California, my kid just has to have them!"
I opened up the box and almost dyed laughing. Lying inside was a tiny black leather jacket and a miniature leopard print cowboy hat. I pulled them out so everyone could see.
"Leave it to AJ to find the one store that sells miniature versions of his clothes," Howie said placing the tiny hat on his head.
"So Rhon, how's the wedding planning coming?" AJ said grabbing the hat off Howie's head and placing it on my stomach.
"We've narrowed the guest list down to 435 people – and the church only seats 350. Howie's mother has started to hint about grandchildren again. The bridesmaids are complaining about the fact that they can't find shoes to match the purple dresses, I have a maid of honor who can't even fit into her dress until she goes into labor and…"

"O.k., o.k. I get the picture. Howie it sounds like your weekend off is going to be quite busy."
"Yeah maybe we should get going and try to do what we can while I'm off," Howie said grabbing Rhonda's hand and pulling her towards the door. I could tell by the look in his eyes they weren't going to get much planning done today.
"Hey Rhon, why don't you give me a call later – I had a great idea for your wedding that I wanted to run by you," AJ said as Howie started grinning from ear to ear. Obviously he'd already heard whatever AJ's crazy idea was.
As soon as Rhonda and Howie left AJ turned to me with a very familiar look in his eyes.
"What are you thinking?" I asked.
"I'm just wondering if what I read in some of those books is true?"
"And what would that be?"
"That pregnancy makes women horny."
"I don't know," I said "Why don't you take me upstairs and we'll see."

After some fun

"What's this?" AJ asked holding up a plain brown wrapped package that had come in the mail the day before.
"I don't know it was addressed to you. It's probably a fan who got a hold of your address again and sent you an 'I Love AJ' package," I said knowing that was usually the case.
"I love those kinda packages," AJ said as he ripped it open. His face turned absolutely white as he looked at what was inside. He hurriedly wrapped the box up again and started to walk out of the room with it.
"What is it?" I asked "A naked picture of a girl?"
"It's nothing!" he said as he hurried up the stairs.
Something was definitely wrong with that reaction. I waddled up the stairs to see what was the matter with him. When I finally found AJ he was sitting on the bed surrounded by pictures and reading a letter. His face was still pale white and his hands were now shaking badly.
"Honey, what is it? What was in that package?" I asked startling him. He tried to hurry up and hide what he was looking at but I got to the bed before he could get to all of them. What I saw on those pictures made my heart stop. All of them were surveillance pictures of me taken from all over. All other faces in the pictures had been burnt away. I knew without seeing the letter who had sent the package, but I felt I needed to know what the letter said.

"The letter – let me see it."
"No, you don't need to know what it says." He said holding the letter out of my reach
"Damn it, yes I do!" I shouted and then took a deep breath and said calmly "Please I need to see that letter." AJ looked into my eyes and saw that I was serious. He slowly handed me the now crumpled letter.

To the fucker who stole my woman's love,

I'm still here. I see everything - even when you can't see me. Look how close I was to her, don't you think I could have taken her at any time? Do you know what I was waiting for? You to die! I'm not as weak as Cal was, I'll get the job done. Don't worry about your kid, it will have a new daddy soon."

Guess Who

I could barely finish the letter through all the tears. AJ walked over, took the letter from me and pulled me tight to him. "Shhh, everything will be alright," he whispered softly.
"How can you say that? He's threatening you now!"
"I won't let him do anything to this family."
I looked up into his eyes so full of love and felt my baby kick. "No," I said wiping my tears away. "I won't let him harm this family." And with that I took the paper from out of AJ's hand and threw it in the trash.

* * *
The weekend with AJ passed by too quickly. I knew I would see him again in a week but I hated to see him go anyway. He was upstairs packing to go back and I was surprised he didn't make me sit in the room with him while he was doing it. He barely let me out of his sight these past couple days long enough to pee. I knew he was trying to be protective but I wasn't about to let Steve ruin what I had.

I started to feel hungry again so I went to the kitchen to make myself something to eat. "Honey do you want something to eat?" I asked through the intercom system we had installed so I wouldn't always have to go up and down the stairs.
"You're eating again?" I heard through the speaker.
"Well I am eating for two you know."
"So which one of you is hungry this time?" he said jokingly.
"Very funny – do you want something or don't you?"
"Sure, I'll take a sandwich. Hey where's that black bag of yours – I need it," I laughed wondering how much he was packing this time.
"It's in the closet over on my side."
"Okay."
I made the food and was about to intercom him to tell him to come down when I decided to go up and hand deliver it. I stood at the base of the stairs and almost changed my mind – I swear there weren't this many stairs when I moved in. "Come on Amber," I said to myself, "just put one foot in front of the other." I slowly made my way up the stairs and to my room. "What the hell are you doing?!" I asked as I saw AJ throwing my clothes into the bag he had asked for.

"I'm packing your stuff – you're going with me."
"AJ your only going to be gone a week, I think I can take care of myself for that long."
"Nope, I'm not taking any chances. You saw those pictures and read that note," he said putting a pair of my shoes in too.
"AJ think about this – a very pregnant woman on a very bumpy bus. I don't think so! Look I'll have Rhonda or Missy stay with me, it'll be fine."
"I already called Howie and Nick, Rhonda and Missy are coming too. Who knows who he'll use to try to get to you. Now no more arguing, you're going!"
I could tell by the look on his face that I was not going to win this fight. "Well at least have the decency to pack some underwear for me too." I said as I grabbed some things that I would need to take along.

Chapter 31